A crying moment'

And it´s it. It's life ... You can't change it and you can't make it better. It's what it is. And it's not getting any better. And will get worse and worse and worse cause you know ... no, I don't know. But I want to discover. I want to know ... Why I'm I here? Why? What I'm I doing here? What the purpose of everything, if the end it's just everything gone? If nothing gets better, and everything ends, then what I'm I doing here? I can't understand. I just can't. I try ... I try really hard, but it's just so far away. The reasons ... the conclusions. It's just everything so dark, So invisible. So not here.